Letters for longer days
I'm really in the middle of studying, but I decided to post while taking a short break. I've sort of always resisted writing open letters to myself and to other people, but I spotted this cute thing on Facebook and decided maybe a full length post ought to be dedicated to it.
16 Letters.
Dear Ex:
You're actually not a bad person, and I'm glad we're still a part of each other's lives. I wouldn't really call you an ex, just a very good friend I decided to adventure with for a while before we both decided that the friendship mattered more than the relationship. I thank you for the great amount of tolerance and patience that you showed to me. Now that I'm a little older and a little wiser, I've come to be a bit more aware of how much of a pain in the ass I can be, and I endeavour to be a better person from the lessons you've taught me about myself.
Dear Self:
Please stop being a shitty over-thinker soon. It's emotionally taxing and you always spiral out of control anyway, so try not to emulate the paranoia of those around you and give yourself space to grow and experience things. Sometimes it's okay to throw caution in the wind and put your need to discover the world ahead of being overly cautious. Try to talk to yourself a little less but be aware of how what you do and what you say affect the people around you? You're actually kind of mean. Maintain yourself, please- and don't forget to love yourself.
Dear Crush:
I'm always crushed by you. So I've stopped bothering chasing the things that'll ruin my day anyway.
Dear Mom:
I have no idea how you put up with me, but thank you for raising me and loving me. I wish you would freak out about less things because I'm old enough and know how to do certain things, although you find that you need to nag at me a lot. I hope you will learn to have more faith and trust in me and my decision making, because you taught me to weigh consequences (and consider all possibilities, which made me an overthinker- thanks but also no thanks). I hope you'll give me time to grow into this added responsibility thing but I promise I won't do anything too dumb, I just want to explore my world as I grow with it. I love you very much, and every day I appreciate you looking out for me.
Dear Dad:
I know I'm growing way faster than you'd like it, but I'll always be your daughter first before everything else. Know that I love you even when my priorities seem elsewhere, and that I miss you when I'm at school as much as you miss me. Thank you for providing for me and loving me, thank you for always instilling a sense of discipline and ownership over the things that I do. I complain a lot about looking like you but it's not actually that bad- please trust me in doing the right things with myself and being able to watch out for myself because I imagine I'm not as helpless as I used to be, although in some moments I definitely am. Thanks for always being the driver and the silent watchman, I love you very very much.
Dear School:
Chill with the assignments guys literally do you people talk to each other when you set assignment deadlines? But thank you for providing me with the opportunity to get a step closer to my dream and for giving me the growing grounds for adulthood. It's been a place of many new experiences and opportunities and I am thankful for it.
Dear Siblings:
I'm glad I rejected the conception of siblings, so thank god for the fact that I have none.
Dear Past me:
Please be less of a dick to the people around you. No seriously, you're a little mean and you also need to learn to control yourself. But stay true to your principles, don't waver, and start loving yourself a bit more. Grow in responsibility, spend more time with your Grandfather. Trust your gut but make good judgments, use logic and stay objective, take every opportunity that comes by and give everything a shot, you don't know how much you're missing till you've missed it. And don't give up, I promise you it'll get better if you hold on for that bit longer. When all else fails, look to your heart for the way. Look to those who love you like you love them.
Dear Future me:
I hope you haven't messed up horribly, and I hope you still are firmly with the person you're happy with. I hope you've learnt to be more responsible, and I hope you've learnt how to drive independently. I hope you've taken risks and met both success and failure, I hope you've learnt from the life lessons, I hope you still have the friends that I hold so dear to me right now- I hope your Archery is a little better, and I hope you're still close to our parents. I hope you've gone overseas to see the world, and I hope you've taken the chances that I am too scared to take. I hope you're more badass than I, more caring than I, stronger than I. I hope you've actually got skills, and I hope you haven't given up anywhere along the way. I also hope that you love yourself.
Dear Future child:
I can't believe I have a child, first of all, because I don't think I'd be a great parent. But if I do, I hope I teach you the way I would have liked to be taught as a child, with less fear (to some degree) and more logic. I hope I've taught you the right things and your father and I aren't doing too bad a job imparting the good morals, and that you have a mind that is your own as much as it's beginnings are mine to mould. I hope you outgrow me in strength and wisdom in all ways, and I hope you take intelligent risks that I am not willing to take. Be smart, be loyal, be true, and remember that I'll always be here for you. I'm probably not the best parent, but I promise you I'm trying.
Dear person I hate:
I've run out of steam to hate people, all the hating I needed to do I did when I was younger.
Dear person I love:
I love a lot of people, but to you, my bumhat, who has taken my heart off somewhere and I can't (and don't want you to) return it, thank you for always caring for me and doing the utter best you can in all ways. I'm insufferable when I have PMS, I know, and you totally know I manja you to get what I want, but you always give in anyway and are so accommodating to what I need and what I want. You put me first, and I am always going to be proud to say that I am yours to hand-hold and talk to at late night and whatever other mushy cliche things couples do. Thank you for taking me seriously, thank you for taking this one day at a time and letting us grow together. I hope that no matter where this goes, we will both learn and grow from it. I love you, but I'll always love my parents more (as would you). Please stop getting injured because it makes me upset and worried.
Dear Ex-best friend:
There's really only one of you. And this is penned with my heart very much in my throat.
I'm sorry things didn't work out the way we had envisioned it to work out. We were close at that point, and we diverged too far from there to ever come back together. At one point we belonged to each other. Now we could not be any further apart. At one point we believed that there was fate between us, a red string tied around our fingers that held us together by some twist of life, but alas I no longer think it is so. I know you're in a time of turmoil, and things are messy and difficult. We may not be close anymore, but I hope things work out themselves for you, and whatever you're going through gets better. My animosity has long faded with time, and I wish you know that as we age. Thank you for the good times we had together, they will forever be a part of me.
Dear celebrity crush:
What?!
Dear Future Husband:
What possessed you to marry me? Also, what possessed me to say yes? Sometimes I can't stand myself, but you get bonus points if you proposed to me by some horrifically cliche method, like asking me to buy a HDB flat with you. If I'm married to you, I have probably been in this for the long haul already. But I'm glad you chose me.
People that Hate me:
Please stop wasting your energy because I don't gain anything from you hating me. If you dislike me for something that I've done or who I am, it's far more constructive and a positive use of energy to really just tell me what it is I've done to put myself so far into loathing. It gives me an opportunity to learn. While I don't guarantee I'll change a damn thing at least you can say you've tried improving the situation. I promise you only that I am willing to listen to it.
xx
16 Letters.
Dear Ex:
You're actually not a bad person, and I'm glad we're still a part of each other's lives. I wouldn't really call you an ex, just a very good friend I decided to adventure with for a while before we both decided that the friendship mattered more than the relationship. I thank you for the great amount of tolerance and patience that you showed to me. Now that I'm a little older and a little wiser, I've come to be a bit more aware of how much of a pain in the ass I can be, and I endeavour to be a better person from the lessons you've taught me about myself.
Dear Self:
Please stop being a shitty over-thinker soon. It's emotionally taxing and you always spiral out of control anyway, so try not to emulate the paranoia of those around you and give yourself space to grow and experience things. Sometimes it's okay to throw caution in the wind and put your need to discover the world ahead of being overly cautious. Try to talk to yourself a little less but be aware of how what you do and what you say affect the people around you? You're actually kind of mean. Maintain yourself, please- and don't forget to love yourself.
Dear Crush:
I'm always crushed by you. So I've stopped bothering chasing the things that'll ruin my day anyway.
Dear Mom:
I have no idea how you put up with me, but thank you for raising me and loving me. I wish you would freak out about less things because I'm old enough and know how to do certain things, although you find that you need to nag at me a lot. I hope you will learn to have more faith and trust in me and my decision making, because you taught me to weigh consequences (and consider all possibilities, which made me an overthinker- thanks but also no thanks). I hope you'll give me time to grow into this added responsibility thing but I promise I won't do anything too dumb, I just want to explore my world as I grow with it. I love you very much, and every day I appreciate you looking out for me.
Dear Dad:
I know I'm growing way faster than you'd like it, but I'll always be your daughter first before everything else. Know that I love you even when my priorities seem elsewhere, and that I miss you when I'm at school as much as you miss me. Thank you for providing for me and loving me, thank you for always instilling a sense of discipline and ownership over the things that I do. I complain a lot about looking like you but it's not actually that bad- please trust me in doing the right things with myself and being able to watch out for myself because I imagine I'm not as helpless as I used to be, although in some moments I definitely am. Thanks for always being the driver and the silent watchman, I love you very very much.
Dear School:
Chill with the assignments guys literally do you people talk to each other when you set assignment deadlines? But thank you for providing me with the opportunity to get a step closer to my dream and for giving me the growing grounds for adulthood. It's been a place of many new experiences and opportunities and I am thankful for it.
Dear Siblings:
I'm glad I rejected the conception of siblings, so thank god for the fact that I have none.
Dear Past me:
Please be less of a dick to the people around you. No seriously, you're a little mean and you also need to learn to control yourself. But stay true to your principles, don't waver, and start loving yourself a bit more. Grow in responsibility, spend more time with your Grandfather. Trust your gut but make good judgments, use logic and stay objective, take every opportunity that comes by and give everything a shot, you don't know how much you're missing till you've missed it. And don't give up, I promise you it'll get better if you hold on for that bit longer. When all else fails, look to your heart for the way. Look to those who love you like you love them.
Dear Future me:
I hope you haven't messed up horribly, and I hope you still are firmly with the person you're happy with. I hope you've learnt to be more responsible, and I hope you've learnt how to drive independently. I hope you've taken risks and met both success and failure, I hope you've learnt from the life lessons, I hope you still have the friends that I hold so dear to me right now- I hope your Archery is a little better, and I hope you're still close to our parents. I hope you've gone overseas to see the world, and I hope you've taken the chances that I am too scared to take. I hope you're more badass than I, more caring than I, stronger than I. I hope you've actually got skills, and I hope you haven't given up anywhere along the way. I also hope that you love yourself.
Dear Future child:
I can't believe I have a child, first of all, because I don't think I'd be a great parent. But if I do, I hope I teach you the way I would have liked to be taught as a child, with less fear (to some degree) and more logic. I hope I've taught you the right things and your father and I aren't doing too bad a job imparting the good morals, and that you have a mind that is your own as much as it's beginnings are mine to mould. I hope you outgrow me in strength and wisdom in all ways, and I hope you take intelligent risks that I am not willing to take. Be smart, be loyal, be true, and remember that I'll always be here for you. I'm probably not the best parent, but I promise you I'm trying.
Dear person I hate:
I've run out of steam to hate people, all the hating I needed to do I did when I was younger.
Dear person I love:
I love a lot of people, but to you, my bumhat, who has taken my heart off somewhere and I can't (and don't want you to) return it, thank you for always caring for me and doing the utter best you can in all ways. I'm insufferable when I have PMS, I know, and you totally know I manja you to get what I want, but you always give in anyway and are so accommodating to what I need and what I want. You put me first, and I am always going to be proud to say that I am yours to hand-hold and talk to at late night and whatever other mushy cliche things couples do. Thank you for taking me seriously, thank you for taking this one day at a time and letting us grow together. I hope that no matter where this goes, we will both learn and grow from it. I love you, but I'll always love my parents more (as would you). Please stop getting injured because it makes me upset and worried.
Dear Ex-best friend:
There's really only one of you. And this is penned with my heart very much in my throat.
I'm sorry things didn't work out the way we had envisioned it to work out. We were close at that point, and we diverged too far from there to ever come back together. At one point we belonged to each other. Now we could not be any further apart. At one point we believed that there was fate between us, a red string tied around our fingers that held us together by some twist of life, but alas I no longer think it is so. I know you're in a time of turmoil, and things are messy and difficult. We may not be close anymore, but I hope things work out themselves for you, and whatever you're going through gets better. My animosity has long faded with time, and I wish you know that as we age. Thank you for the good times we had together, they will forever be a part of me.
Dear celebrity crush:
What?!
Dear Future Husband:
What possessed you to marry me? Also, what possessed me to say yes? Sometimes I can't stand myself, but you get bonus points if you proposed to me by some horrifically cliche method, like asking me to buy a HDB flat with you. If I'm married to you, I have probably been in this for the long haul already. But I'm glad you chose me.
People that Hate me:
Please stop wasting your energy because I don't gain anything from you hating me. If you dislike me for something that I've done or who I am, it's far more constructive and a positive use of energy to really just tell me what it is I've done to put myself so far into loathing. It gives me an opportunity to learn. While I don't guarantee I'll change a damn thing at least you can say you've tried improving the situation. I promise you only that I am willing to listen to it.
xx
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