PARTHIANS (TPJC2013)
Wow. I cannot believe Orientation went by like THAT. Also, congratulations to me for surviving the first few days in a Mixed school, after being in a Single Sex school for, I dunno, a decade.
YES I am in TPJC, Parthians Group :P I don't really have much to say about orientation- I met a bunch of nice people that I feel I get along with, I had plenty of fun and ran (for the first time) like really fast during our water games. Experienced many days of just being hot, tired and sweaty, feet aching and body crumbling from the sudden high volume of activities after a three month long break. :) I can also dance now, to some extent, and can even remember all of the steps! Days have been pretty rainy and very sunny, so Weather is just being really PMS-sey.
Today basically marked the start of JC life. I literally just started wearing my uniform today and BOY is the collar stiff :/ Tomorrow is an early day though, I only have to be in school till 1230 too because it's a day to my birthday (which is a day to chinese new year SO WHOOOOOPEEE) I really like the uniform though, its like Primary school (blue) + Secondary School (green) = Junior College (Teal). :D So maybe I've been expecting this my whole life? Who knows right? :) Either way I've had a really awesome last 4 days, and my OG mates say the BF today (LOL it was so awkward because they literally lead us to the table RIGHT BESIDE THEM!)
We had amazing race in the CBD too, it was tons of fun. :) I have to admit though that sometimes it's hard not to feel left out. In a sense I blame myself because for some reason I tend to exclude myself and hang around people that I'm comfortable with? But it's also easy to see the guys who can accept my guy-ish ways like Lancelot and guys who aren't comfortable with a non-sweet-and-innocent-and-soft type of girl who isn't coy and has a dirty mind (I blame C, Lancelot and BT for these effects) and therefore tend to just ...well ignore me completely but who am I kidding. I'm not that kind of girl. Maybe I am. Somewhere.
I try my best to care okay, I really do, I want to be your friend but no, If you can't accept me what's the point in even bothering to make you understand that I'm not going to pretend I don't get the implication, or sit with my legs crossed and pretty, or speak with a soft demure voice. It wouldn't be me if I did that. If I did, Lancelot would scream SHAM.
Anyway yes it's been pretty interesting as a TPJC Student. But I hope I can somehow maintain the way I am and the way things are. Maybe there's too much of me to be judged to appreciate who I am. Maybe it's not as simple as it used to be. Maybe I'll never be accepted because I'm not like everyone else. Maybe there's a price to pay for having a mind of my own.
xoxo
YES I am in TPJC, Parthians Group :P I don't really have much to say about orientation- I met a bunch of nice people that I feel I get along with, I had plenty of fun and ran (for the first time) like really fast during our water games. Experienced many days of just being hot, tired and sweaty, feet aching and body crumbling from the sudden high volume of activities after a three month long break. :) I can also dance now, to some extent, and can even remember all of the steps! Days have been pretty rainy and very sunny, so Weather is just being really PMS-sey.
Today basically marked the start of JC life. I literally just started wearing my uniform today and BOY is the collar stiff :/ Tomorrow is an early day though, I only have to be in school till 1230 too because it's a day to my birthday (which is a day to chinese new year SO WHOOOOOPEEE) I really like the uniform though, its like Primary school (blue) + Secondary School (green) = Junior College (Teal). :D So maybe I've been expecting this my whole life? Who knows right? :) Either way I've had a really awesome last 4 days, and my OG mates say the BF today (LOL it was so awkward because they literally lead us to the table RIGHT BESIDE THEM!)
We had amazing race in the CBD too, it was tons of fun. :) I have to admit though that sometimes it's hard not to feel left out. In a sense I blame myself because for some reason I tend to exclude myself and hang around people that I'm comfortable with? But it's also easy to see the guys who can accept my guy-ish ways like Lancelot and guys who aren't comfortable with a non-sweet-and-innocent-and-soft type of girl who isn't coy and has a dirty mind (I blame C, Lancelot and BT for these effects) and therefore tend to just ...well ignore me completely but who am I kidding. I'm not that kind of girl. Maybe I am. Somewhere.
I try my best to care okay, I really do, I want to be your friend but no, If you can't accept me what's the point in even bothering to make you understand that I'm not going to pretend I don't get the implication, or sit with my legs crossed and pretty, or speak with a soft demure voice. It wouldn't be me if I did that. If I did, Lancelot would scream SHAM.
Anyway yes it's been pretty interesting as a TPJC Student. But I hope I can somehow maintain the way I am and the way things are. Maybe there's too much of me to be judged to appreciate who I am. Maybe it's not as simple as it used to be. Maybe I'll never be accepted because I'm not like everyone else. Maybe there's a price to pay for having a mind of my own.
xoxo
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