Flat Out, Drained and Tired.
Oh what a shitty week it's been.
While I suffer indigestion, a leaky nose and other ailments let me blog because I feel creativity slipping from my fingers very, very quickly and I'm scared I lose my ability to deep think like I used to. What if I become some airhead potato thing?
Okay hot word of the week for me was potato. I keep saying it, I don't know why. From cute to stinky to crazy to retarded all of them end with POTATO I think the starchiness is growing on me LOL.
HEAVEN ALIVE DID YUUKI DO IT WITH KANAME? OH GROSS VAMPIRE KNIGHT BURN THEM WITH FIRE (Zero it's okay I'VE ALWAYS PREFERRED YOU TO THIS INCEST THING)
Potatoes.
Anyway yes other than my INSANE anger that Yuuki and Kaname are still together (god just HATE.THAT.PAIRING) Ive been having really bad spells of like woozy petunias everywhere illnesses and I'm feeling just so sick and gross okay :/ Like really, what a feeling it is to be me right now. I can't get enough sleep and my body is just threatening to buckle again under all the stresses. Best part is, school's only just started. According to a friend of mine ( I shall call him Yak Milk, it's his nickname :D) it doesn't spell any good for the rest of the year. Heck, I agree.
I've gone back to watching Rhett and Link on Youtube (go check them out! If you're the kind of person who does like to have a video a day, their second channel has a Good Mythical Morning segment. I love what they do) and watching vintage toy reviews and new toy reviews. I don't know, it seems so much fun and old toys seem so much better than the cheap plastic-y things we get today. Or kids get today, if they even buy toys anymore with the advent of Ipads.
No, I loved my childhood. I don't want to grow up remembering the number of hours I stabbed a screen pretending to cook, when I had plastic veggies and pots and pans and could feel what I was doing. So I didnt have the sizzle as the fish hit the pan, or the colour change- but I did have an imagination. And Imagination that kids will so severely lack if they only rely on digital entertainment.
What happened to shows like Dora the Explorer and Blues Clues? Shows that really made me think and I loved them so much. Kids won't grow up making their own paper dolls like I did, with hundred of accessories that I drew myself and cut out painstakingly. They'd have these fancy magnetic sets with set pieces of clothing and backdrops, or even just a computer clicking away to cheesy music. What's the point, honestly, in that kind of childhood? What will they grow up and remember doing as a child for entertainment?
I used my hands and my ears to learn about my world. I felt things between my fingers like the cold metal of old hot wheels cars, the pain of paper cuts, the messiness of markers strewn all over the floor and making slippers out of paper. I remember wearing the Pyjamas my Grandmother sewed for me, holding onto a bolster like it was my life (I am not embarrassed to say I STILL DO AND CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT A BOLSTER) and how I grew up with paint and crayon, paper and pen. I grew up thinking using pen was the coolest thing ever, and now I wish I could do all my work in Pencil. I remember watching Lizze Mcguire (how do you spell that?) on television and admiring the Pay T.V. I didn't have in my house till I was much older.
What happened to me? What happened to all the years that I spent growing up and becoming who I am today? What happened to being a kid? It was just 5 years ago, don't tell me I'm growing up NOW, don't tell me I can't change this, don't tell me, don't tell me.
Don't tell me I turn twenty in 3 years, and I'm an adult now.
I'm not.
I'm still the little girl clutching her bolster and watching cartoons on TV, drawing for entertainment and watching Robot Fights with my dad on Channel 5 after Kindergarten.
I'm so depressed right now.
I'm going to carry my bolster to the living room and watch rise of the guardians. God I'm so depressed.
xoxo
While I suffer indigestion, a leaky nose and other ailments let me blog because I feel creativity slipping from my fingers very, very quickly and I'm scared I lose my ability to deep think like I used to. What if I become some airhead potato thing?
Okay hot word of the week for me was potato. I keep saying it, I don't know why. From cute to stinky to crazy to retarded all of them end with POTATO I think the starchiness is growing on me LOL.
HEAVEN ALIVE DID YUUKI DO IT WITH KANAME? OH GROSS VAMPIRE KNIGHT BURN THEM WITH FIRE (Zero it's okay I'VE ALWAYS PREFERRED YOU TO THIS INCEST THING)
Potatoes.
Anyway yes other than my INSANE anger that Yuuki and Kaname are still together (god just HATE.THAT.PAIRING) Ive been having really bad spells of like woozy petunias everywhere illnesses and I'm feeling just so sick and gross okay :/ Like really, what a feeling it is to be me right now. I can't get enough sleep and my body is just threatening to buckle again under all the stresses. Best part is, school's only just started. According to a friend of mine ( I shall call him Yak Milk, it's his nickname :D) it doesn't spell any good for the rest of the year. Heck, I agree.
I've gone back to watching Rhett and Link on Youtube (go check them out! If you're the kind of person who does like to have a video a day, their second channel has a Good Mythical Morning segment. I love what they do) and watching vintage toy reviews and new toy reviews. I don't know, it seems so much fun and old toys seem so much better than the cheap plastic-y things we get today. Or kids get today, if they even buy toys anymore with the advent of Ipads.
No, I loved my childhood. I don't want to grow up remembering the number of hours I stabbed a screen pretending to cook, when I had plastic veggies and pots and pans and could feel what I was doing. So I didnt have the sizzle as the fish hit the pan, or the colour change- but I did have an imagination. And Imagination that kids will so severely lack if they only rely on digital entertainment.
What happened to shows like Dora the Explorer and Blues Clues? Shows that really made me think and I loved them so much. Kids won't grow up making their own paper dolls like I did, with hundred of accessories that I drew myself and cut out painstakingly. They'd have these fancy magnetic sets with set pieces of clothing and backdrops, or even just a computer clicking away to cheesy music. What's the point, honestly, in that kind of childhood? What will they grow up and remember doing as a child for entertainment?
I used my hands and my ears to learn about my world. I felt things between my fingers like the cold metal of old hot wheels cars, the pain of paper cuts, the messiness of markers strewn all over the floor and making slippers out of paper. I remember wearing the Pyjamas my Grandmother sewed for me, holding onto a bolster like it was my life (I am not embarrassed to say I STILL DO AND CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT A BOLSTER) and how I grew up with paint and crayon, paper and pen. I grew up thinking using pen was the coolest thing ever, and now I wish I could do all my work in Pencil. I remember watching Lizze Mcguire (how do you spell that?) on television and admiring the Pay T.V. I didn't have in my house till I was much older.
What happened to me? What happened to all the years that I spent growing up and becoming who I am today? What happened to being a kid? It was just 5 years ago, don't tell me I'm growing up NOW, don't tell me I can't change this, don't tell me, don't tell me.
Don't tell me I turn twenty in 3 years, and I'm an adult now.
I'm not.
I'm still the little girl clutching her bolster and watching cartoons on TV, drawing for entertainment and watching Robot Fights with my dad on Channel 5 after Kindergarten.
I'm so depressed right now.
I'm going to carry my bolster to the living room and watch rise of the guardians. God I'm so depressed.
xoxo
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