I am NOT terrified.
I'm also lying completely to myself in an attempt to not rip my hair out and do the rain dance because I'm like two centimeters from losing it. I'm not really afraid of what I get, I'm more afraid of what I'll do with what I get. I still get this horrible feeling that I'm going to fail miserably and do very poorly. I mean all I ask for is less than 15 points, and preferably a raw score of 8. But I'll leave it to god to decide I guess, at this juncture that's all that's left to be done.
Countless people have approached me, parents and family and friends that they are proud of me for whatever I get, because they've seen me work hard and struggle. I have seen episodes of me doing that, but so far only for Amaths so here I am, crossing my fingers REALLY FREAKING TIGHT that I've made something food for myself. That I've done myself and all the work I've put in justice that the stupid curve won't be the ultimate bullet in my side. Oh why bother rambling what's done is done, right?
AFTER THIS I WILL PLAY SIMS TO KILL PEOPLE.
Where was I? Right. So on Tuesday I headed out with Lancelot to NYP and we had a ball of a time because we went to see only the School Of Design (I was just a lackey for the day) and I watched him giggle and draw his heart out in the most god damn creepy manner ever but whatever I'm used to it. Made a few plans to draw on the blank shirts and got off the train at Orchard because I was about to die from Hunger (breakfast at 8 and Lunch and 2 makes me a very unhappy person). Pigged out at KFC (whoops) and eventually walked to like Art Friend and the Toy Section and whatnot before going home. :) Had an awesome day because I finally got to go to My grandparent's house for dinner :D It's been a while since I went there.
Wednesday. Okay I was basically rotting at home yesterday and crying on the sofa because I was stressed and I literally had nothing to do. Like there was no one to go out with and I was bawling EVERYWHERE (like on twitter and stuff) and Lo and behold my best friend from School YT drops me a text and is like "Wanna hang out :)?" Which is so uber nice of her to respond to my call for help sigh. We're really close but because we were working and on holiday and stuff we didn't get to meet up! D: SO we finally did and I was so happy wheee. Went to cookie museum with her where she did part time for a bit and bumped into a few people.
Now It's a little funny to see the two of us with linked arms I guess ( Okay its this bad Girl's School Induced habit of mine ) and it was extra awkward with who we bumped into we literally just like smiled waved and walked by like some pair of awkward as hell penguins but okay we laughed it off later :P Went and had lunch at Suntec's Pepper lunch AND UGH BLOODY HELL ASTONS IS GONE like I was looking forward to like their roasted chicken breast and BOOM gone.
Walked over to Melinnia to have a cuppa at Starbucks. I'm a real fan of the green tea Latte because I don't really do the coffee thing. As in Occasionally yes I'll sit down for a cuppa Joe and a coffee joint but most of the time I just get tea based drinks. I'm weird. Had an Iced GTL (short for the ...well you can guess) and talked somemore before going back to city hall because I had to go for a facial. Thing. Well it's relaxing and stuff c: can't blame the inner girlie for liking it.
Had Salad for dinner (yes I can be a bunny WHEN I WANT TO) and then proceeded to screw all the efforts by waiting for my elder cousin at Starbucks and having the second GTL of the day (yep, two Venti GTL's in a day, I think I'm trying to kill myself) and proceeding to have Udders Ice Cream. I don't care, BALLSY MINT HAS A WEIRD NAME BUT IT'S SO GOOD.
Result taking at 2pm. Oh well! May blog about it later. Who knows?
xoxo
Countless people have approached me, parents and family and friends that they are proud of me for whatever I get, because they've seen me work hard and struggle. I have seen episodes of me doing that, but so far only for Amaths so here I am, crossing my fingers REALLY FREAKING TIGHT that I've made something food for myself. That I've done myself and all the work I've put in justice that the stupid curve won't be the ultimate bullet in my side. Oh why bother rambling what's done is done, right?
AFTER THIS I WILL PLAY SIMS TO KILL PEOPLE.
Where was I? Right. So on Tuesday I headed out with Lancelot to NYP and we had a ball of a time because we went to see only the School Of Design (I was just a lackey for the day) and I watched him giggle and draw his heart out in the most god damn creepy manner ever but whatever I'm used to it. Made a few plans to draw on the blank shirts and got off the train at Orchard because I was about to die from Hunger (breakfast at 8 and Lunch and 2 makes me a very unhappy person). Pigged out at KFC (whoops) and eventually walked to like Art Friend and the Toy Section and whatnot before going home. :) Had an awesome day because I finally got to go to My grandparent's house for dinner :D It's been a while since I went there.
Wednesday. Okay I was basically rotting at home yesterday and crying on the sofa because I was stressed and I literally had nothing to do. Like there was no one to go out with and I was bawling EVERYWHERE (like on twitter and stuff) and Lo and behold my best friend from School YT drops me a text and is like "Wanna hang out :)?" Which is so uber nice of her to respond to my call for help sigh. We're really close but because we were working and on holiday and stuff we didn't get to meet up! D: SO we finally did and I was so happy wheee. Went to cookie museum with her where she did part time for a bit and bumped into a few people.
Now It's a little funny to see the two of us with linked arms I guess ( Okay its this bad Girl's School Induced habit of mine ) and it was extra awkward with who we bumped into we literally just like smiled waved and walked by like some pair of awkward as hell penguins but okay we laughed it off later :P Went and had lunch at Suntec's Pepper lunch AND UGH BLOODY HELL ASTONS IS GONE like I was looking forward to like their roasted chicken breast and BOOM gone.
Walked over to Melinnia to have a cuppa at Starbucks. I'm a real fan of the green tea Latte because I don't really do the coffee thing. As in Occasionally yes I'll sit down for a cuppa Joe and a coffee joint but most of the time I just get tea based drinks. I'm weird. Had an Iced GTL (short for the ...well you can guess) and talked somemore before going back to city hall because I had to go for a facial. Thing. Well it's relaxing and stuff c: can't blame the inner girlie for liking it.
Had Salad for dinner (yes I can be a bunny WHEN I WANT TO) and then proceeded to screw all the efforts by waiting for my elder cousin at Starbucks and having the second GTL of the day (yep, two Venti GTL's in a day, I think I'm trying to kill myself) and proceeding to have Udders Ice Cream. I don't care, BALLSY MINT HAS A WEIRD NAME BUT IT'S SO GOOD.
Result taking at 2pm. Oh well! May blog about it later. Who knows?
xoxo
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