It's Finally Over.
After struggling to come to terms with whatever the result of mine for today would be, I can't say I'm disappointed. I'm not really "NO I'M NOT TELLING" about my results so Basically it's a 13 raw score and a 11 after deduction of CCA points, for JC. That essentially makes well IB virtually impossible at this point, which breaks my heart because I wanted IB so , so so badly. But I won't make it anymore and that's basically that, the end of a dream I guess.
On the bright side, I have an 8 for L1R4, which means the course I'm pinning for is TOTALLY WITHIN RANGE (Hurrah!) so I can probably be happy and go to the Poly I want. But I guess this isn't really the hard part. You see, I would've gunned for IB at the price of anything but my parent's to be in financial difficulty and for me to have to sell my soul to the devil. Point is, I'm kind of ON THE FENCE right now. Like I'm stuck in a super awkward position where "Well I can go to JC but I can also go to poly so where the hell should I go I suppose."
I'm also right on a school average of 11.6 - which makes the sting less stingy and my options less complicated. I was all hyped up for Poly at the thought of wearing my own clothes and just carrying a big handbag or something to school and maybe having time to take up scriptwriting before school starts but then it all like BLAMFPED on me when I was talking to my other bestie M (I have 7, I'm sorry having one is just mean) and I realized that I was terrified of doing something that I may not like.
Don't get me wrong, if you can tell by the upkeep of this blog, I love English. And I love Writing. And I love all these things (which accumulated into an A1 for both Literature and English, TOTAL WIN because I was so scared I'd screw those up) which make me want to take up something that has to do with them. I've adapted a Shakespeare script into something understandable in its original form and easy to understand, and I love what I do. I love Drama and the Arts, it's just SO ME. I'm just scared that Mass Comm leads me no where in the end and that I end up at some cross road yanking my hair out in frustration or if I end up not liking what I pick. What do I do then?
I guess I'll think about this tomorrow. My brain is all fuzzy and sad and I'm stuck with results that are neither YAY or NAY. :( Oh well.
xoxo
On the bright side, I have an 8 for L1R4, which means the course I'm pinning for is TOTALLY WITHIN RANGE (Hurrah!) so I can probably be happy and go to the Poly I want. But I guess this isn't really the hard part. You see, I would've gunned for IB at the price of anything but my parent's to be in financial difficulty and for me to have to sell my soul to the devil. Point is, I'm kind of ON THE FENCE right now. Like I'm stuck in a super awkward position where "Well I can go to JC but I can also go to poly so where the hell should I go I suppose."
I'm also right on a school average of 11.6 - which makes the sting less stingy and my options less complicated. I was all hyped up for Poly at the thought of wearing my own clothes and just carrying a big handbag or something to school and maybe having time to take up scriptwriting before school starts but then it all like BLAMFPED on me when I was talking to my other bestie M (I have 7, I'm sorry having one is just mean) and I realized that I was terrified of doing something that I may not like.
Don't get me wrong, if you can tell by the upkeep of this blog, I love English. And I love Writing. And I love all these things (which accumulated into an A1 for both Literature and English, TOTAL WIN because I was so scared I'd screw those up) which make me want to take up something that has to do with them. I've adapted a Shakespeare script into something understandable in its original form and easy to understand, and I love what I do. I love Drama and the Arts, it's just SO ME. I'm just scared that Mass Comm leads me no where in the end and that I end up at some cross road yanking my hair out in frustration or if I end up not liking what I pick. What do I do then?
I guess I'll think about this tomorrow. My brain is all fuzzy and sad and I'm stuck with results that are neither YAY or NAY. :( Oh well.
xoxo
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