Rainy, Hazy Days.
I have this terrible feeling, that all that has happened has some connection.
Texas. Boston. Poison in the Mail.
May my worst fears never come true. May this speculation, stay speculation- and stay strong. Our hearts are with you. More than ever before.
Hey there everyone! How was your week?
The haze these few days is crap, today being the worst- I could smell the burn and smoulder in the air and damn thats gross. :/ But okay whatever happens happens and I just wish very hard that I could stop it. Today was one hell of a hectic one, I wish I could just curl up in a cardigan and sleep it the hell off (like how tired I am) but LOL NOPE PW. It's like life is giving me the third finger and smiling, all while reminding me that I have a Human Geog test and a prose Lit test next week! Oh along with College day and DHS Invest well go on, tell me how little of a life I have eh. Oh not to mention homework, food of the devil.
When I heard my exam was like 3 hours long for Econs I swear I nearly cried. I'm that scared, by the way, of the insanity I'll be driven to in the exam. I think I will be. I might just throw up and burst out crying about "How I can't do this shit anymore and I want out now" and just sob uncontrollably because I'm slightly emotionally unbalanced- okay make that VERY I lied okay? I'm starting to go all bonkers despite trying very, very hard to try and like...stay calm and cool and be awesome about life, but I feel that with bare hands I scoop hard soil out of the ground to build some shallow grave to my death. I suddenly can't see what i'm doing anymore, or why I'm doing it. I'm like a machine. One lecture in one lecture out- one tutorial in one tutorial out. Wash, repeat. I can't see myself doing anything special these two years despite wanting to make it special.
Council Executive Committee came out today, congrats to all my fellow council members who got elected up! I'm really happy you made it and am please to be working with you for the next year and a half. I also did something to my back that has warranted me 7 days of MC from PE so I'm pretty happy (teehee I'm dieting but I'm a lazy bitch sue me.) Feeling very gross and tired after running about the whole afternoon in Tie and Blazer and court shoes under the sun- it's very much not a fun experience but with the friends there it's a whole ton awesome. Like taking selfies and giggling and singing and stuff, It really makes life a little more palatable.
Can't wait to meet Mr Kitty for lunch on Sunday, and try to keep the stress down and stuff- doing my work diligently but well I'll do as much as I humanely can while staying WELL, and by well I mean staying illness-free. I hope that for everyone whether you're in like Poly or JC or ITE or whatever it matters okay? All of you take care of yourself. Every Single ONE OF YOU. :D Missing my crazy baby C and lancelot, missing GMN and totally going bonkers without YT and stuff. You know girls, (and the one and only guy) that I'll lose you as we start to split up into our different tracks on the rainbow of possibility. But I know I'll be able, somehow, to still keep you guys in heart and mind, and hopefully you will too.
xoxo
Texas. Boston. Poison in the Mail.
May my worst fears never come true. May this speculation, stay speculation- and stay strong. Our hearts are with you. More than ever before.
Hey there everyone! How was your week?
The haze these few days is crap, today being the worst- I could smell the burn and smoulder in the air and damn thats gross. :/ But okay whatever happens happens and I just wish very hard that I could stop it. Today was one hell of a hectic one, I wish I could just curl up in a cardigan and sleep it the hell off (like how tired I am) but LOL NOPE PW. It's like life is giving me the third finger and smiling, all while reminding me that I have a Human Geog test and a prose Lit test next week! Oh along with College day and DHS Invest well go on, tell me how little of a life I have eh. Oh not to mention homework, food of the devil.
When I heard my exam was like 3 hours long for Econs I swear I nearly cried. I'm that scared, by the way, of the insanity I'll be driven to in the exam. I think I will be. I might just throw up and burst out crying about "How I can't do this shit anymore and I want out now" and just sob uncontrollably because I'm slightly emotionally unbalanced- okay make that VERY I lied okay? I'm starting to go all bonkers despite trying very, very hard to try and like...stay calm and cool and be awesome about life, but I feel that with bare hands I scoop hard soil out of the ground to build some shallow grave to my death. I suddenly can't see what i'm doing anymore, or why I'm doing it. I'm like a machine. One lecture in one lecture out- one tutorial in one tutorial out. Wash, repeat. I can't see myself doing anything special these two years despite wanting to make it special.
Council Executive Committee came out today, congrats to all my fellow council members who got elected up! I'm really happy you made it and am please to be working with you for the next year and a half. I also did something to my back that has warranted me 7 days of MC from PE so I'm pretty happy (teehee I'm dieting but I'm a lazy bitch sue me.) Feeling very gross and tired after running about the whole afternoon in Tie and Blazer and court shoes under the sun- it's very much not a fun experience but with the friends there it's a whole ton awesome. Like taking selfies and giggling and singing and stuff, It really makes life a little more palatable.
Can't wait to meet Mr Kitty for lunch on Sunday, and try to keep the stress down and stuff- doing my work diligently but well I'll do as much as I humanely can while staying WELL, and by well I mean staying illness-free. I hope that for everyone whether you're in like Poly or JC or ITE or whatever it matters okay? All of you take care of yourself. Every Single ONE OF YOU. :D Missing my crazy baby C and lancelot, missing GMN and totally going bonkers without YT and stuff. You know girls, (and the one and only guy) that I'll lose you as we start to split up into our different tracks on the rainbow of possibility. But I know I'll be able, somehow, to still keep you guys in heart and mind, and hopefully you will too.
xoxo
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